i am not surprised
everybody BETTER get out and vote
An example of how gays are ruining our modern society.
Look how fiendishly immoral they are.
Look how happy and family oriented they are, ugh. It makes me sick.
Someone call FOX News, we finally have proof.
Jesus Christ, gay people are constantly ruining my life.
“You wanted it. You love me. We belong together. Trust me.” I was a 14 year old virgin. He was almost 19. He never denied what he did. It’s ruined me, but I need a voice. I will not be ashamed. I was raped. I will heal.
This is literally one of the hardest things I’ve done.
This was inspired by Project Unbreakable. This is my story to go with the picture.
I had just turned 14 years old and he was almost 19. I was a freshman in high school. He was involved in the choir program at my school and he was in community college. He was visiting my school during the choir class I was in and he saw me. After class, he talked to me. He seemed fine enough, but I had a sickening feeling. He gave me his phone number and we texted a bit, but I was incredibly uncomfortable with this.
The day after he met me, he dropped out of community college. He began talking to one of my friends. He told her that he liked me. She convinced him to try to pursue something. When he was attempting to pursue something with me, I told her that I was exceptionally uncomfortable with it. She gave him my locker combo and told him where I lived and he began stalking me. Eventually, after much pressure from my friends, they convinced me to “date” him (although I’m not sure that’s what I would call it).
As time passed, I convinced myself this was normal. I went into denial. And eventually, he raped me. Several times. And every time he told me it was okay… that I wanted it… that he loved me and that when I turned 16, he was going to run off and marry me… and I was too scared, too fragile to tell anyone. I convinced myself that it’s what I wanted after it happened.
As this was going on, I was becoming more and more depressed. I was ashamed. I was humiliated. And I didn’t have a voice to tell anyone. Thankfully, one of my friend’s parents found out about what was going on and even though they approached my mother in an awful way about what was going on, it finally brought to my mother’s attention (because I could not) what was going on.
He was arrested. He has been in and out of jail. He failed the pedophilia test and they gave him a plea deal. He has broken probation on 20+ accounts. He is currently out of jail… and that terrifies me.
I still have a lot of PTSD from it. Every time I see someone resembling him physically, I have a panic attack. When I go places that I know he goes, I have a panic attack. When people mention him, I cry. I attempted suicide several months after he was arrested because I was so ashamed of myself. I can legitimately say that I hate myself for it… and a lot of times, I blame myself. That this is my fault.
This story doesn’t have a happy ending. I’m still suffering from what happened. I’m still fragile and broken and this incident has defined who I am. However… I keep hoping that there is a light at the end of the tunnel. And I hope this story encourages other rape victims to come out and share their story as well. Please, please don’t be like me. Don’t hide and end up becoming so depressed that you try to take your own life… you can get help. And the sooner you get it, the easier it will be. I can’t imagine how different my life would be had I had the strength and support system to get help.
I will no longer let myself be afraid of this. I’m not going to hide. If people don’t believe me… they don’t believe me. I know the truth and that’s what matters. And I hope this helps rape victims across the world.
This is my first step toward getting better. I hope you can make this step with me.
I’m always here if you need to talk, and so are lots of other people. Good luck.
Nellie the sea otter stacks cups at Point Defiance Zoo & Aquarium [x]
OH MY GOD
IT’S LIKE LOOK
LOOK I DID IT
BE PROUD OF ME
Can we set up an Otter Olympics, where we watch otters do amazing and/or cute things, and we cheer and give them all 10s and every otter gets a “gold medal” aka 1000 pounds of fish and we get these amazing memories and photos and everyone wins?
Animals are so much smarter and awesomer than people give them credit for.